My Resolution

I've been through hell as of late, my ass is certainly scorched, the hair singed off, as I skirted the gates of hell.

The Winds of Change are blowing and I look forward to the New Year. I'm standing up, not dancing as fast as I did but a bit more optimistic. While some say the glass is half full, others will say the glass is half empty. I will just be grateful for the water.

I've never been one for New Years Resolutions but this year, mine is to be a little less negative, a little more assertive and I'm done playing the Saint Barbara/Martyr role. That doesn't mean I will begin a daily regimen of negativity. No, it means I will begin an exercise of self preservation. I will seek out that which makes me laugh, those that love me unconditionally and a no holes barred approach, to a few important things/situations/scenarios. The biggest or most important of those things is, I will become the Matriarch of my family again. This New Year, I will have a goal to get back to a place, where "MY" family is there for holidays, I will cook that Turkey myself and have my children and grandchildren by my side.

Happy Holidays


What's your Resolution???

19 comments:

Steve said...

My resolution is to have more fun.

AZCG said...

I'm going to try to erase my negative past (dear ol' Dad is dead and I still hate his sorry ass), try not to hold a grudge for more than 50 years, and maybe learn not to take negative comments to heart.

Xmichra said...

not going to make any. Not this year.

zeckko said...

Thank you my dear to be there. Simply as that.
and if you dance tonight play Silvester's "you make me feel" !

Mantramine said...

Same as always. Not to make new years resolutions.

glad your back

thejunkyswife said...

That all sounds good to me. I'm glad you're back and doing good.

Mine is to take better (fucking) care of myself (goddamn it).

msb said...

The same as yours, not being so negative.

DirtyBitchSociety said...

Steve, nothing wrong w/that. I need to laugh more, it is the greatest medicine. I try to seek it out everyday. Along with music...it sooths the savage bitch!

DirtyBitchSociety said...

azcg, easier said than done, huh? But it's a good start to look at it and see that our own anger can consume us and we are the one that ultimately pays for it. I know, I went off the deep end because of anger and built up rage and frustration.

I feel ya sister, I feel ya!

DirtyBitchSociety said...

X, as Bobby Brown would sing, "it's your prerogative," right? I rarely make resolutions nor have I been one for actually setting goals. This year however, my goal is to get to a place, physically, where I'm closer/with my sons and grandkids. It's a must do win win situation for me.

DirtyBitchSociety said...

Zeccko, yes another resolution; to dance, laugh and sing. I'm gonna dance the nite away.

DirtyBitchSociety said...

Zeccko, I had to look up Silvester's "you make me feel" ! Wow, what an oldie but goodie. Made me wanna drag my ass out on the dance floor(my kitchen) and work that shit, lol!

You know all my sons love disco, actually all music because when they were little, even in utero I played music and danced every day. Now, I happen to believe that because I danced with them as babies, they have rhythm. Yes, white men can dance, lol!

DirtyBitchSociety said...

Mantramine, never made them before, personally. But I do and will resolve to be a little less hateful. I can be such a bitter bitch, ya know? I complain too much and am sick of hearing myself. Sooooooo, maybe I need to shut up? hahahah!!I'll work on that.

DirtyBitchSociety said...

Mantramine, PS thanks for the welcome back, I surely appreciate that!

DirtyBitchSociety said...

The Junky;s Wife, thanks my friend, for the welcome back, I need all that good energy, sent my way. Yes, thank ya kindly ma'am.

Ya know, in my old age, (Yes, I am old enough now that I fart dust and shit cobwebs)I have learned a few things; if I don't take care of me, nobody will. I also learned that no matter how badly I want it, I can't fix anyone else. The eventuality of that is I end up needing fixing because of that person. I can throw a life preserver out there/plant some seeds and hope for fruition but I must not be a martyr for the cause. Yes, if Mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy, so it must be self preservation. Right?

DirtyBitchSociety said...

MSB, it ain't easy to be upbeat sometimes. ya know? I mean for the most part, I'd learned that some of us, well, the only emotion we'd allowed ourselves is anger and being negative. Once I'd come to the realization that my anger was and is only hurting me, I could clearly see that I had to let go of some of that old shit, that old rage and rise above it. I think there have been times where I enjoyed that anger cause it made me feel alive. But then again, so does jumping off a cliff...till you hit the bottom. Ya gotta say "ouch, enoughs enough." That's where I am, becoming aware of the shit instead of having the devil may care attitude, I am so famous for.

Xquizit said...

mine is to be with you more!

marky said...

You go girl! All the best to you for 2008.

Jonathan said...

No holes plugged approach??? What the hell?

Oh, you said "no holes barred" approach. My bad.

:-p